J I am 21 years old and normally still a lot of things to live but these 21 years are not easy and I am tired by the wickedness of men and a destiny not very glorious.
A small summary: my father's incest victim aged 5 to 9, beaten and harassed by my mother's new friend, emotional failure and miscarriage at 16, I'm lucky to live a beautiful love story for 4 years with my darling. But I have sexual blockages, I do not often want him because it disgusts me and in late 2001 I lost my brother 2 years my youngest.
Far from being a Melanie Klein, I wonder what can happen to me and my family, and I find it hard not to be paranoid about my future and that of my loved ones. I am someone strong I think, I start university studies in psychology to try to understand better ... But today what I ask is just support, a shoulder, and especially that I am reassured or at the risk of being egocentric, tell me that I am a good girl, who succeeds ...
I need to be revalued. I did not say everything but that's enough and at least I was honest. Thank you all.